Personal issues
Ok CPW. Some know my issues, I've been open and honest to some in the game. I haven't been open and honest to you all. Some here like me, some here don't . I understand that. I'm sure I'm not the only one, and I hope others can see this and feel better.
For 9 years I've suffered from depression. Anxiety and stress. Some may laugh now and think that it's not really an issue. Yesterday I thought a bought suicide. Yes me, the leader of a top posse. A forum contributor . But yes something happened yesterday for me to actually think about it. After 9 years of never once thinking it was that bad. Now I think it is. I won't, so don't start worrying. But it has made me think. It's made me sorry. I may not like people and I may not ever get on with them but I am sorry for my behaviour on CPW. I've used the forum to escape from my reality and take it out on others. For which I am truly sorry.
Depression is real . I have it. Do you know that the next person you chat too on CPW has it. No you don't. Why because they haven't told you. Why because they will be laughed at.
Laugh all you want, fight on here, but I am done with it now. I hope you all will be too. My life has now allowed me one thing. And that is to see that this game is not worth it. The friends I have found here will help me but the enemies. I'm now forgetting . The friends I will use to help me continue in CPW. Do the best I can for the pirates. Hi rest assured I will never say another word against anyone on CPW.
Chester Bennington committed suicide due to depression . He had a famous band and money. But it still wasn't enough. Think about all the players on CPW, think about what they go through everyday...............
Then think about what you say to them .
Again I am sorry for everything I've said bad to anyone on CPW .
Love each other
For 9 years I've suffered from depression. Anxiety and stress. Some may laugh now and think that it's not really an issue. Yesterday I thought a bought suicide. Yes me, the leader of a top posse. A forum contributor . But yes something happened yesterday for me to actually think about it. After 9 years of never once thinking it was that bad. Now I think it is. I won't, so don't start worrying. But it has made me think. It's made me sorry. I may not like people and I may not ever get on with them but I am sorry for my behaviour on CPW. I've used the forum to escape from my reality and take it out on others. For which I am truly sorry.
Depression is real . I have it. Do you know that the next person you chat too on CPW has it. No you don't. Why because they haven't told you. Why because they will be laughed at.
Laugh all you want, fight on here, but I am done with it now. I hope you all will be too. My life has now allowed me one thing. And that is to see that this game is not worth it. The friends I have found here will help me but the enemies. I'm now forgetting . The friends I will use to help me continue in CPW. Do the best I can for the pirates. Hi rest assured I will never say another word against anyone on CPW.
Chester Bennington committed suicide due to depression . He had a famous band and money. But it still wasn't enough. Think about all the players on CPW, think about what they go through everyday...............
Then think about what you say to them .
Again I am sorry for everything I've said bad to anyone on CPW .
Love each other
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True, it is a game. Most play games to be entertained only. So they avoid topics like this.
But I say.....we sometimes fight, in order to find ourselves, and through fighting we often find more of a harmonious balance in life.
I first fell in love with this game, because I believed the developers had this intention. Now I'm not so sure about that, but it was fun to imagine of such.
For me....there are people I have fought with both in game, and on FB or forums. It has helped me to grow, and I respect them all now, much more than before. Nice transitions of understanding have occurred in most cases.
All the broken bones and surgery was nothing, compared to the side effects of long term use of morphine.
It fcks your mind up, BIG TIME!!
I didn't cared about anything!
I almost crashed my relationship, I told everyone to fck of, both friends and family.
Best way to describe it, it was like a black hole!
I did get help to try solve it, and it worked.
That's why I wrote as I did in Punk chat.
Take care MPH!